Whenever I listen to the song “Make Me Over” by Natalie Grant my heart literally aches and I feel it drop into the pit of my stomach. When the violins start playing my mind immediately takes me to the glass corridor of the University of Utah Hospital by the Neuro Critical Care Unit (NCCU) at the moment I knew my 17 year old daughter, Aimee, wasn’t going to survive. I begin to feel weak and the tears start coming. It’s ok though because I know that sometimes I need to embrace the grief and let it pour over me like a rush of water. I usually don’t listen to that song but every once in a while I accidentally hear it and it startles me like turning the … [Read more...]
Adjusting to Life Changes
It's been a very long time since I've posted. Sometimes life seems to get in the way of our best intentions. I find it's hard not to judge myself for these "inadequacies". I've learned that placing these types of labels on myself doesn't help me. When I begin saying these things to myself I have to keep redirecting this internal voice. I've found that each time I practice good self talk it gets easier and becomes more natural. In the last two years much has changed in my life. Even previous to my last post I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia. I was in denial and kept seeking other answers. After receiving this diagnosis from more than one doctor I began to realize it was probably real. I … [Read more...]